Sunday, July 18, 2004
Last night was Megan's party. It was great to see my best friends again. Will+Ika, Megan+Collin, Walldo+Anita, Amelia, Malcom, Stuart and another person from Werribee SC were there. And my sister and Scott went too.
Since I was still taking antibiotics for my wisdom teeth, I couldn’t drink :-( . So I just drank coke :-(
It was a fun night at first I didn't take Walldo's advice of "letting go", but as the night went on, I couldn’t help but act different and go with the flow, and it was fun not to care how I looked or how I acted, and all without the help of alcohol.
It was nice to meet Anita again, last time I didn’t know she was Walldo's Girlfriend. It was great to get to know her. Walldo is really lucky, I am happy for him.
It doesn’t matter how many times they say to me that I will find someone eventually, and I do believe them. I can’t help but feel a bit depressed when I see so many couples and seeing how much fun they are having together. It is occupying alot of my time now, though I know it shouldn’t. I constantly think and worry about being alone, and wonder when and who it will be. And at my weakest times, I wonder if it will ever happen at all, and why Tasha had to like me in the first place.
But as I said my friends help me the most, even though a weird sense of jealously arises at points. Though not intended, and it is not their fault in any way.
Talking to my friends pushes all my worries away, if only for a while and they keep the flame of hope alive within me. And for that I can't thank them enough.
I left at 1am, it was a great party. And shows I don’t need to drink to have fun or let go (though it does take a bit more work
when sober).
//Simmo 11:47am
Since I was still taking antibiotics for my wisdom teeth, I couldn’t drink :-( . So I just drank coke :-(
It was a fun night at first I didn't take Walldo's advice of "letting go", but as the night went on, I couldn’t help but act different and go with the flow, and it was fun not to care how I looked or how I acted, and all without the help of alcohol.
It was nice to meet Anita again, last time I didn’t know she was Walldo's Girlfriend. It was great to get to know her. Walldo is really lucky, I am happy for him.
It doesn’t matter how many times they say to me that I will find someone eventually, and I do believe them. I can’t help but feel a bit depressed when I see so many couples and seeing how much fun they are having together. It is occupying alot of my time now, though I know it shouldn’t. I constantly think and worry about being alone, and wonder when and who it will be. And at my weakest times, I wonder if it will ever happen at all, and why Tasha had to like me in the first place.
But as I said my friends help me the most, even though a weird sense of jealously arises at points. Though not intended, and it is not their fault in any way.
Talking to my friends pushes all my worries away, if only for a while and they keep the flame of hope alive within me. And for that I can't thank them enough.
I left at 1am, it was a great party. And shows I don’t need to drink to have fun or let go (though it does take a bit more work
when sober).
//Simmo 11:47am
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