Simmo02

"what would you do if you werent afraid?"That is the question that I keep on asking myself over and over again. How would my life be if I did'nt take risks. But I have concluded that people are afraid for reasons. Its all about perceived risk, and this perception is based on a persons experiences throughout life. For whatever reasons, someone experienced something negative, and thta means that the person will not want to repeat that mistake again. Some of us have lots of negative experiences and we discover lots of ways of blocking the dangers the world may have. But as a result these people do not grow. There is a point at which you have to change to survive. My catalyst was "the wall", and I think overall it has made me a more mature and sociable person. There are times where I do not like the way I was before the wall. And I could almost see why they wanted to bully me. But I am no longer that person, it also helps that the people around me have grown more mature too. In the end it is not "one thing" that changes a person it is everything.
If I wasnt the shy person that I was for most of my life, I wouldnt be the person I am today. I wouldnt have the friends I have, I wouldnt like the same things, I wouldnt have had the same relationships. I wouldnt have been me.
But even though I talk more, I am still afraid. I still hold back. I still think too much about the risks of things. And the worst thing is, that when I do throw caution to the wind, I get burned.
//Simmo